Never did I blogged about my work. I may have shared some moments during work, but not that the entire post is all about work. Today is going to be different. I need to unload some thoughts I have tried to keep. But since I do not know who to share these, I decided to just share it to you.
I have been in my current company for almost a year now. So far, it has been the longest period I ever stayed in a company. I have been to two other companies before this. I cannot honestly say that I love the work. I guess it's more on, I have learned to love the work because of the people I am working with.
When I first stepped at the office premises and started doing my job, I told myself that I will just stay up to my sixth month. But that was not the case. I have learned to love the people, the environment, the easy life I have at the office. Though there were times that I have been loaded with a lot of work, I never thought of (officially) quitting. I really did enjoy everything along the way. Maybe I joked about resigning but it was just up to there.
Lately though, I started to become a little confused. The company started doing some major transitions. As these transitions took place, there's this thought in me that my stay might be put to an edge. Meaning, there's really a chance that I might loose my job.
I work as a writer but the department where I belong is into search engine optimization. I love writing. It has always been my dream to become a writer, and definitely not an seo copywriter. The company is about to take another major transition. That is, they're planning to make our department a full-pledged seo (marketing) department.
I was not asked once, but a lot of times already if I am interested into shifting from being a full-time web copywriter to becoming a full-pledged seo copywriter. Like what I have always said (to my bosses, colleagues, and friends), never did I get interested into the seo thing. I never neither plan nor take into consideration shifting to that kind of industry. It is not that I do not want to grow, it is not that I am not willing to take a new challenge, not that I do not want to leave my comfort zone. It is just that I know in myself, I will never be happy with it. I know in myself that I will just be forced to do that, and that is something I do not want to happen. To be into something that my heart is not into.
I am sad. I know I am. I do not know why when things seem to be okay, news such as this would come along my way and seem like it tries to ruin the happy feeling I have for the past few days. Now I am tormented. Now I am confused.
What do you think? Is this going to be goodbye?
I got to face this new challenge. Got to journey the path intended for me soon. ^_^