Saturday, February 27, 2010

Getting Hitched

Okay, let me clear it up, I am not getting hitched yet. That would be a miracle for now since I am not even committed to anyone. It's my friend who's getting married. Oh yeah, a friend who is a year younger than me is getting married!

It was just this afternoon that she texted and informed me that she's finally settling down with the man of her dreams come April this year. That's about two months from now! I was surprised, but wished her nothing but the best as she finally engage to married life.

Speaking of which, I somehow envy her. Yeah, I know this sounds a little crazy and weird for me, but somehow the thought of settling down comes to mind once in awhile. I guess it's normal for single people like me. There would really be times when you'd question if destiny's doing its part in your life. I am not in hurry though, just for the record.

Marriage is definitely not a joke. It never will. I believe in its sanctity. I believe in its power. I also believe that marriage is a wonderful gift from God. Imagine, you will be with someone who you really love for the rest of your lives, and build a family in realization of God's words. That's really amazing, right?

Anyway, going back, I oftentimes wonder when would I meet the man who God has perfectly created to be my lifetime partner and confidant. I wonder when would be the day that our path will cross, or when will we realize that we actually have found each other already. I am an idealist and a dreamer, I still believe in happy endings. I still believe that each one of us have our own love story to share. A love story perfectly written for us.

I am still in search of my own love story. With my friend, she has finally found hers. In two months time, a new chapter of her love story is about to unfold. In two months time, she will walk a new journey. A journey together with the man that God has intended for her.

As for me, I continuously pray that God may give me the man He has intended for me in the right time, in the right moment. I pray that one day, just like my dear friend, I will settle down and live a contented life with my man and our kids to be.


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Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Ashes to Ashes

There's really nothing spectacular about this post.

Actually, I was thinking what would I be sharing in here. I mean, it has been quite sometime since I posted. Well, it's been so cliche. I always say that in almost every post I've made for the past weeks.

Anyway, so what am I going to say now? Today is Ash Wednesday. For Catholics like me, it's a hint that the Lenten Season is coming soon. Since Sunday, I was thinking whether to go to mass and have myself ashed or just do otherwise. I was having a second thought not because of anything big (reason), but just because, I do not know really.

Then come this morning. I woke up early, and was caught up thinking whether I'd go to mass since I heard the bell rang, or should I just go on with my daily routines. As expected, I chose the latter.

Now, I saw a lot of people with ashes on their forehead. You know, goes to show that they are Catholics and that they give importance to the day. Okay, I am a faithful person. I may not be a religious person, but I believe I am a faithful one. I am loyal to my religion, I observe the Holy days of my religion. That's it.

So what about now? I was walking back to my office (with my colleagues actually) when I saw this group of students with what else? Ashes on their foreheads. There comes the thought, "Are they really meaning that Cross in there? Or they just did so, so as to tell the world that they belong to the Catholic community?"

I am not the type who go against anything about religions. For me, your religion is your choice, as much as being faithful is your choice as well.

Well, what I am really trying to say is, or should I say, my thought bubble is asking, "Do people really know the true essence of that Cross (ashed) on their foreheads?" "Do they really know why we have to be ashed?" "After having that, what about?"

Oh well, whatever the case may be, whatever the real reasons are, I have nothing really against about it. Just trying to share my intuitiveness regarding what we are observing this day. :)

I told you, there's really nothing about this post. Thanks for taking time (to read )anyway. :)


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Thursday, February 11, 2010

I've Got Something New

Okay, I know I am really addicted to blogging. Though I haven't been able to update my blogs as often as I could this past few days, I know in myself that I am so into it.

So what about the title post? I am overwhelmed with how other bloggers appreciate my blog/s. I am so happy knowing that somehow others could relate to me. I am happy knowing that some people really take time to visit my little spaces in the blogosphere.

With that, I am welcoming you to another NEW in me. Got a new home. It's called,

But wait, that doesn't mean I am leaving this blog site, okay? I would just want to share something more personal than what I have in here. Both will be different. Well, my three blog sites are really different from one another.

Anyway, just in case you want to know me better, I think the new blog site would be the best site to go. So there, I hope to see you in my other home as well. :)

By the way, sorry if I seldom comment in your posts guys. I do visit your sites. Just couldn't comment. But I'll do comment soon.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

I Call Them, GOALS

(A Long Overdue Post)

I'm really not into making new year's resolutions. I feel like if you really want to do something out of the usual, you just do it.  For me, resolutions are mere jokes, unless you really mean doing them. But hey, I have nothing against those people who make resolutions.

Anyway, I actually have my own version of resolutions. I call them, GOALS. I have been doing this since I can't remember when already. Every 31st day of December, you'd usually see me somewhere, alone and writing something. I put it on a piece of paper and then I would keep it inside my wallet so I won't see what's in it (until the last day of the coming year). Sounds weird? I keep it as a secret between me and myself. When the time comes, I open it and check if I was able to meet my goals.

For this year, I already did my list of goals. But since I wanted to do something out of the ordinary, I will share some of what I wanted to achieve come the end of 2010. Wow! It's a little exciting for me. A little because I feel more pressured and nervous  about it (hahaha).

Anyway, here are some of what I want to accomplish for 2010.

- It's long overdue. I wanted to be able to go back to school. Oh please laziness! Please go out of my way! I don't need you now (hahaha). I really, really want to go back. I miss being at school. I miss the pressures and all. I miss being surrounded with professors who keep on bugging their students about deadlines and stuff. Oh, I envy my dear friend because she's taking her master's already. Poor me. I need the energy! It'll come, I know. :)

-  Do I need to say it again? Save! It has been a dream that I could never materialize. Up to now, I have no savings! Where did I put my money? Oh well, I guess this time, I really need to be serious on this. That is if, I still have something to save (hahaha).

- I wanted to go places but has no enough urge to do so. I need companions! Who in the world would want to travel alone? Well, for soul searchers that is applicable, but for someone who wants to have fun, I guess that's a big no-no.

- I would love to gain more friends. Not that I want a Miss Congeniality award, but because I want to build more lasting friendships. It's always been a goal I set every year. Who would have wanted not to earn new friends in a year anyway?

- Got a new collection in mind! I'm almost done with Paulo Coelho's and Mitch Albom's books. Now, I am looking forward to buying and collecting Nicholas Sparks' books. I have one already, I still owe myself a lot (hahaha). He has sixteen books as of this writing. So that basically means, fifteen more to go! Oh my. Anyone? :)

- Less talk, less mistake. I have been tactless, I know. That is why I will try to lessen it. I will practice it, I swear. But hey, let me just clear it out. That doesn't mean I will not talk even if I know there's something wrong going on already, okay? I will, still, but when talking is not necessary, you'll hear nothing from me.

- Stop complaining! Oh, let me rephrase that, lessen your complaints. I have started. I am trying to shut my mouth already and just do my thing. It'll be hard, but I guess it's something good. I will still complain though, but if and only if it's needed.

- My mouth should be sealed. If necessary, I'll put a fragile sign so I won't mishandle secrets. Not that I am a spiller, okay? I know when a secret should remain a secret. It's just that I wanted to really shut my mouth more often now. :) Stop being talkative Pam!

- I do not want to rant anymore. That's a statement I vowed not to do or at least get rid of for the rest of the year. I have been  ranting about stuff, and I came to realize, it's too much and that I should stop and just feel good about other things. As much as I could, I want to spare myself from negative things, thoughts, and people this year. Does that mean letting go of something or someone? Perhaps.

- Be more cautious when making decisions. I have the "spur of the moment" attitude sometimes, which means, I decide on things based on what I think and feel right that very moment. That shouldn't be the case now. I would want to practice really thinking a couple or if not, a million times before finally coming up with a decision. I would want to see myself as a more responsible decision maker.

- Lastly, I would want to be more confident. This has been my problem ever since. A lot of people thought I am very confident about myself and that I am not shy. But the truth is, I am as shy as you never thought I am (hahaha). It's hard for me to open a conversation, but once someone has done it for me, and I feel like talking to the person I am with, then you'll hear me talk. I guess this won't take much of my time though, because I have started it already. :)

There you go. This post is really long. I congratulate you for taking much time reading this. Anyway, I hope I would really be able to realize all these. Wow! I couldn't wait for December 31st to come (hahaha).