Missing Home

I miss home. I have been living away from home for more than six years now. I seldom see my family. I only get to see them when they come over or I go home for vacation. When I was still studying, sem breaks, Christmas breaks, summer breaks were my most awaited times of the year because I got to spend those with my family in the province. Now that I am working, chances are so rare.

Last year, I spent Christmas here in the city together with my sister and her family, and our eldest brother. That was the first time our family spent the holidays apart. We used to make sure that during Christmas and New Year, we're together. Sad to say, there are some things, some traditions that have to change now (no matter how unwilling we are to change them).

In two months time, we will be celebrating Christmas and New Year again. If I have one greatest wish for the coming holidays, I wish our family would be able to celebrate it as one again. I wish our family would be able to share each other's joy for the coming season together.

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Nothing beats the feeling of celebrating the Christmas season with your loved ones. It's actually the essence of the holidays.

Is This Goodbye?

Never did I blogged about my work. I may have shared some moments during work, but not that the entire post is all about work. Today is going to be different. I need to unload some thoughts I have tried to keep. But since I do not know who to share these, I decided to just share it to you.

I have been in my current company for almost a year now. So far, it has been the longest period I ever stayed in a company. I have been to two other companies before this. I cannot honestly say that I love the work. I guess it's more on, I have learned to love the work because of the people I am working with.

When I first stepped at the office premises and started doing my job, I told myself that I will just stay up to my sixth month. But that was not the case. I have learned to love the people, the environment, the easy life I have at the office. Though there were times that I have been loaded with a lot of work, I never thought of (officially) quitting. I really did enjoy everything along the way. Maybe I joked about resigning but it was just up to there.

Lately though, I started to become a little confused. The company started doing some major transitions. As these transitions took place, there's this thought in me that my stay might be put to an edge. Meaning, there's really a chance that I might loose my job.

I work as a writer but the department where I belong is into search engine optimization. I love writing. It has always been my dream to become a writer, and definitely not an seo copywriter. The company is about to take another major transition. That is, they're planning to make our department a full-pledged seo (marketing) department.

I was not asked once, but a lot of times already if I am interested into shifting from being a full-time web copywriter to becoming a full-pledged seo copywriter. Like what I have always said (to my bosses, colleagues, and friends), never did I get interested into the seo thing. I never neither plan nor take into consideration shifting to that kind of industry. It is not that I do not want to grow, it is not that I am not willing to take a new challenge, not that I do not want to leave my comfort zone. It is just that I know in myself, I will never be happy with it. I know in myself that I will just be forced to do that, and that is something I do not want to happen. To be into something that my heart is not into.

I am sad. I know I am. I do not know why when things seem to be okay, news such as this would come along my way and seem like it tries to ruin the happy feeling I have for the past few days. Now I am tormented. Now I am confused.

What do you think? Is this going to be goodbye? 

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I got to face this new challenge. Got to journey the path intended for me soon. ^_^

Betrayal of Trust

 Admit it, once you've tarnished one's trust, it would be real hard to regain it.

One thing I have learned in life (and i guess most of us actually) is to cherish the trust given to me by other people, because once I fail, I know I can never put that back to the way it used to be (no matter how willing I am to regain it).

I promised myself to never post any negative thoughts in here, but I guess, there would really be times when I just have to. After all, not all negatives are negatives. There are also positive things out of every negative ones, right?

It just so happen that someone broke my trust, and it saddens me now.

Anyway, at least I have learned my lesson. Never again should I trust anyone unless they've proven they're worth it. ^_^


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Just a simple reminder (feel free to click the link below):


2010 Election Watch: 10 Days To Go

Question!

" Do we live in the physical world that we can touch, or do we live in the world that we create in our minds? "

I think most of us tend to live in both worlds. There comes a time when we live in reality, while sometimes, we tend to live in what we call, fantasy land or fantasy world so we could spare ourselves from the hassles we get from the physical world.

On one hand, being in what we call real world is not easy. There are a lot of anguish, there are failures, wars, hatred, so on and forth. There's also happiness but we don't usually see it because we're too preoccupied looking at the negative side of life.

On the other hand, there's fantasy land or world. Sad to say, it only lies within our minds (or does it really?). This is the world that we supposedly is enjoying but we don't because we are too insecure of one another. This is the world that only gives joy and happiness. This is the world where our distant dreams are real. This is the world where no one is being left behind, no one suffers, no one is selfish.

Now, as for me, I guess I live in a physical world that caters what I have in mind. ^_^

Is that what you call, Law of Attraction at work? (Oh, that's another thing. ^_^)

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Note: The quoted text above is from the movie, Sassy Girl.

I Was Scared But I Conquered

I used to be scared of a lot of things. I used to be scared of the perils of life. I used to be scared of other people's judgment. I used to be, so that means, that was before. Today, I must say, I am not scared anymore. I am not scared of the things that life may give me.

I was then scared to ride a taxi alone, but when I finally did it, I realized, it's amazing riding one.

I was then afraid to take mud slide, but when I tried, I got addicted to it.

I was then afraid to speak in a large crowd, but when circumstances allowed me, I felt it was worth doing again.

I was then scared to sing in front of other people, but when I did it, I felt good at how they reacted.

I was then scared to fall in love, but when I allowed myself to fall, I couldn't trade to anything how amazing the feeling was.

I was then afraid to get hurt, but when reality hit me and I found myself into it already, I realized that getting hurt made me become the person I have become today, better and stronger.

I was then scared to fail at school and at work, but I realized life won't be complete without failures. It is the spice of life, definitely.

I was then scared to cross a busy street, but when I finally crossed, I was very proud of myself.

I was then scared to make friends for they might judge me, but when I opened myself to the thought of making friends, I realized how wonderful it is to have a lot of friends around.

I was then afraid to take risks, but I realized that taking risks is part of our everyday life and that it had made me become a better human.

I was then afraid of losing my loved ones, but when they left, I realized, nothing is really permanent on earth, even people leave.

I was then scared of disappointing my parents and the people who believe in me, but I learned that not at all times I have to live with other people's expectations. I learned that not at all times I have to please other people. After all, this is my life and I am the only one responsible for it.

Life is really very short. So why would we let ourselves be deceived just because we are scared of doing things we want to do or at least try something we haven't done yet? Let me say this, do not let hesitations rule over you. Do not be afraid to leave your comfort zones. We only have one life, so why waste it from being scared? I guess nothing is more scary than being regretful at the end for not allowing yourself to explore what the world has in stored for you.

 

Before Leaving Humanity

Okay, I know the title of this post sounds creepy. But hey, I am not leaving as in dying yet (well at least not now). I went through some sort of blog hopping when I got the chance to read one blogger's post about the things he would want to do before he dies. Yeah, I got this idea from him (I found it interesting anyway).

So much for the intro, let me share the things I would want to do before leaving planet Earth. So here it goes.

1. I want to become famous. Not that I want to become a celebrity, perhaps famous in social work or something related to making a difference (help the poor, send someone to school, something like that).

2. I want to become a lawyer. I would want to prove that not all lawyers are liars. :)

3. I want to meet the man who's destined for me and I to him.

4. I want to get married. I want it to be solemn. You know, just me, my husband-to-be, and the people we love. I don't want it to be extravagant. What matters is, everyone will get to enjoy the moment.

5. I want to bear a child. Maybe four kids would be enough.

6. I would want to travel the world with my family.

7. I want to learn how to swim (though I had basic education on swimming, I still do not know how).

8. I want to try extreme sports.

9. I would want to leave a legacy. Maybe getting involved in community outreach programs or founding a foundation for the kids.

10. I want to meet famous people.

11. I would want to write a book.

12. I wish to be able to sing in front of a large crowd.

13. I want to break rules!

14. I want to experience true independence.

15. I want to gain a lot of friends (with different personalities so I'd learn a lot from them as well).

16. I want to try eating exotic foods.

17. I would want to see my family - all of them - in a good social state.

18. I want to have my own space (a house would be great, a condo would be fine).

19. I want to learn how to drive and own a car.

20. I would want to create a lot of wonderful memories with my loved ones.

There you go. Those are just some of the many aspirations I have. Those twenty things I wrote are just some of the many things I would want to accomplish in my lifetime. So far, life is not that rude to me. I have my fair share of goods and bads, but that's okay. I must say, my life is well-balanced at the moment. I may not have the love of my life yet, but at least I have a good work that satisfy my needs, friends who bring joy, and a family that inspires me.

How 'bout you? What are the things you would want to do before the final day comes? ^_^

On Climate Change: Let's Take the Lead!

Typhoons, active volcanoes, tsunamis, floods, landslides, earthquakes. These are just some of the natural calamities that kept on bogging us these past few days and months. There have been lives taken, dreams forsaken, future left hanging, families broken because of the occurrence of these calamities. Are we going to allow another calamity to take place? Better think about it.

One major reason that led to these calamities is climate change. Our country is a living testament that climate change could be rude to humans. That it could take not just our sources of living but our sources of joy as well - our families, friends, relatives, fellowmen.

If I remember it right, this year, I did not feel the heat of the summer's sun. I felt like there was no summer season at all. During our country's summer period, it was raining hard. Now, when supposedly it shouldn't be raining that much already, it does. Perhaps not everyone is aware or haven't noticed that something awkward is happening in our environment. Something out of the ordinary.

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In about seven months, the Filipino electorate is about to elect new sets of leaders. What made it more exciting is, we are about to elect a new president. A new leader who we hope could address all the important issues in the country to the best way he/she could.

One important issue that he/she should give importance is, climate change. In my humble opinion, it's time that our forthcoming leaders should set aside personal agenda, instead, focus more on things that matter such as this. I believe nobody wants another Ondoy and Pepeng tragedy. I believe nobody would want tsunamis, earthquakes, and other natural calamities to destroy our native land, our beloved planet, our lives.

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On the other hand though, we should not just lift it all up to the government. As ordinary citizens of this county and of the world, we have to start doing something. Changing our routines would help a lot. Stop throwing garbages just because you're lazy enough to look for a garbage can. Stop illegal logging, mining, and other human activities that would destroy our environment, that could lead to something we do not want to happen.

We just can do so much. Let's do it together NOW.

After Letting Go, Move On

Here's the catch, once you've let go, move forward. There's no room for looking back. Past is past. You can try reminiscing about the good times, but as much as possible, try not to. I realized that moving on becomes harder when people keep on looking back on the memories, be it good or bad. So better yet, stop. Just stop.

So how are you going to start moving on then? I honestly do not know. I guess that depends on you. If throwing  memorabilia would make you feel good, then do so. If crying would lead you to moving on, cry 'til your last tear drops. If moving to another place will help you, then go. If meeting new people or having new activity will help you, just do it. As long as it will help you move forward, do not hesitate to do so.

But you know what's the best thing to do? Pamper yourself. You've read it right, pamper yourself! Indulge in whatever that would make you happy. Stop thinking about anybody else or worry about something, just enjoy. Be with yourself. Do not be harsh on yourself. Love yourself to the fullest! Fulfill your dreams, your heart's desires. ^_^

The Art of Letting Go

Hmm... Okay, this is not an  emo post as you thought it might be. Actually, I'm just about to share different thoughts on letting go, which I came across while surfing the net. It made sense really.

So here it is:

How Letting Go can be an Expression of Love

•  “True love doesn’t have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you.” - Anonymous
• “In the end these things matter most: How well did you love? How fully did you love?
  How deeply did you learn to let go?” – The Buddha
• “We need in love to practice only this:  letting each other go. For holding on comes easily--we do not need to learn it.”  –  Rainer Maria Rilke
• "Because of your love I have broken with my past.” – Mevlana Rumi
•  “Every breath is an opportunity to receive and let go. I receive love and I let go of pain.” – Brenda  MacIntyre

 Letting Go and the Consequences in Quotations

 Letting go sometimes offers the freedom of breaking loose and valuing yourself as in the following quotes:

•  “The key to change … is to let go of fear.” – Rosanne Cash
•  “There's an important difference between giving up and letting go.” – Jessica  Hatchigan
•  “Breathe.  Let go.  And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure.” – Oprah Winfrey
•  “Knowledge is learning something every day. Wisdom is letting go of something every day.” – Zen Proverb
•  “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.” – Lao Tzu

 Letting Go as a Personal Challenge in Quotations

 Letting go can take courage and a lot of nerve as is expressed in the following quotes:

•  “Sometimes you have to let go to see if there was anything worth holding on to.” – Anonymous
•  “The Tao Te Ching says, When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need.  Have you ever struggled to find work or love, only to find them after you have given up? This is the paradox of letting go.  Let go, in order to achieve.  Letting go is God's law.” – Mary Manin Morrissey
•  “Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?” – Mary  Mannin Morrissey
•  “Let go. Why do you cling to pain? There is nothing you can do about the wrongs of yesterday. It is not yours to judge. Why hold on to the very thing which keeps you from hope and love?”  – Leo Buscaglia
•  “Being strong sometimes means being able to let go.” – Anonymous      
  

Let Go and Let a New Future Begin in Quotations

•  When the time comes to let go, some people sense and accept it; others find it more traumatic. Letting go can turn the time ahead into a new opportunity.
•  “Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.” – Dr. Seuss
•  “We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.” – Joseph Campbell
•  “There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world; it’s the beginning of a new life.” – Anonymous

Let me just add my personal thought on letting go. For me, letting go is about being brave to face the reality that some things are not just meant to be. Sometimes, no matter how much you try to hold on and hope that everything will be better, you just can't. You just can't neither dictate what the future holds nor command what destiny has in stored for you. At the end of the day, you'll just really end up realizing that there's no other way out but to let things go and move on. After all, if you won't do so, it's you who's going to suffer real hard.