30 Days Before Christmas: Anything Goes

Another chapter in my life is coming to an end. Looking back, I only have good things in mind for I chose not to look at the bad ones. I have always been grateful for every opportunity that comes. I have always been grateful for the people I got to meet. I have always been grateful for every experience I've gone through.

I have never been this strong in my life. I have never been this positive. I wanted to cry, not because I am sad for the forthcoming ending, but because I will leave amazing peers behind. I have found a new family who I got to be with in creating a wonderful bond and a bunch of memories.

More than feeling sad, I am happy. I am happy because I know there's something better waiting for me. I am happy because I know I am given the chance to explore the world outside this four-corner room I am now in.

Life has been fair. It has given me both the good and bad. It's molding me to becoming the best I can be.

I was never afraid of new beginnings. In fact, I've always been thrilled. I've always been excited to know what's coming ahead of me.

I was never afraid of endings either. Because I know that whenever something comes to its end, something far better is coming along. We all deserve the best. Therefore, things have to end when it's not yet the best.

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I was never good at saying goodbye. I guess I am better in saying "see you when i see you." The world is too small for our paths to not cross. We will see each other again sometime soon. :)

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Let this be my way as well of saying thank you for everything. Thank you for all the good memories. Finally, it's time to MOVE ON. :)

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In a couple of days, I will be back to the province for the Feast of Immaculate Conception. Though I was so disappointed with my Filipiniana dress or should I say gown, I just would want to think that it would be fun since this is going to be my very first time to wear such dress or gown again. I think I was on my 6th grade when I last wear a Filipiniana.

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I am excited to see my ever loved friends. I feel so blessed having such good friends around. No matter where I go, I know I always have friends to go back to. Of course, I am excited to see my family as well. Can't wait to mingle with my makulit na pamangkin, and have some nice talks with my older sis.

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I could hardly feel the holidays. I don't know why, but maybe when I'm home I would. Perhaps with the huge Christmas tree at home (in the province), I will no longer feel this way.

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I am excited for PEBA! Yes, I am looking forward to attending the awards night. I hope nothing would hinder me from going - it's going to be my first time to attend a bloggers' event (if ever) and it's PEBA. :)

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I don't want to be sad, but I am so gonna miss my new found friends. I'll be missing the people I am leaving behind. Anyway, things happen for a reason, and besides, my friendship with them won't end as I leave.

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Endings and beginnings. Both are essential to our lives. We have to learn how to cope up with it. Oh my, I am half excited, half scared, but I know I will be okay as God is leading the way. I can't wait for my new beginning. :)

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For now, just like most of everybody, let's enjoy the coming holidays. Wow! I can't wait to eat a lot of food this coming holidays! Yeah, more than anything else, I am excited to eat! :D

In Time, The Wound Will Heal

 (This has been in my drafts for a couple of weeks now. I wrote this during the time when my emotions were down because of something unexpected. - Indeed, writing is a therapy. Note: This is a little emo. :-p)

Whoever gets to read this, or if the person I am referring to gets to read this, just let me be.

Today I was bombarded with a common fact that sometimes, you just have to let things be no matter how painful it may be. I learned another lesson, which I will bear with me as I continue traversing this road called, life.

I am no longer a baby trying to learn how to crawl. I am no longer a kid starting to learn how to read and write. I am no longer a teenager trying to know herself. I am now an adult. An adult who's bound to experience both the good and bad of life.

Life has given me so much. I laughed and cried. I put a smile on my face and showed some tears running down my cheeks. I loved and lost.

Though I have been through a lot, I never intend to stop. I never intend to surrender. I continuously embrace what's given to me.

I admit, I am hurt. As the song goes, "I can't believe what I just heard. Could it be true?"

Memories flashback.

In life, I've learned to let things be. To not question what's going on. I've learned to keep my silence so as not to hurt anyone. But yeah, the more you keep things to yourself, the more it hurts. The more you try to hide what you're feeling, the more you're crushed down.

I am not a neophyte when it comes to love nor an expert. Just like most of us, I came across the highs and lows of falling in love. But I realized, the best thing about falling in love is, when you expect less from the other person. When you learn to be happy for the person you love. When no matter how painful things may be, you bear it, cry a little, be happy for the other person, and move on.

No, I am not a martyr, not even a hero of love. I am just a human who loves.

"I'd rather hear the truth than believe in a lie."

While writing this, I'm trying to hide the pain from the people around me. I'm trying not to shed a tear. I'm holding back my emotions, but deep inside I know I just want to run home and cry. I just want to feel the pain so I could easily let go of the hurt. Deep inside I know I can't hide what I am truly feeling.

Time heals. Distance does as well. Now I understand why I had to go. Now I understand why I had to be honest to myself for once. Now I understand why it all had to happen. All along He was preparing me for today. He was preparing me for this day.

Thanks To You

I did it! I was able to chance my 100 votes count. :)

Again, my deepest thanks to those who voted for me. Voting has not ended yet, it's still on-going (just visit PEBA). It doesn't matter if I get high votes. What matters to me is, I was able to step up and be counted on this year's PEBA. :)

It's an early Christmas gift and anniversary gift as well to have been part of it. :)

Again, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU especially to those who are campaigning for me. Maybe you thought I am not aware of it, but yes I am. I am humbled by the support you are giving me. It doesn't matter if I win or not, the fact that a lot of people have showed support to me through voting and commenting and liking is enough. Saying thank you for a couple of times won't tire me. :)

Also, how would I forget to say THANK YOU PEBA for counting me in. It is an honor to be part of this year's nominees. Whew! Continue the good work you have started. :)

GOD Bless you a hundred fold. :)

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Read my entry here: A Dreamer's Avenue: My Piece and Salutation.

Suggestions Please...

In more than three weeks, A Dreamer's Avenue will be turning two years old!

I'm thinking of what to write, but apparently, I couldn't think of any yet, and so because of that, I am opening this page to solicit a topic for my second anniversary post.

Suggestions (and questions - I was thinking of a Q and A but I guess that won't work much) are so welcome. :)

God Bless Us All. :)

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Meanwhile, vote as you please, A Dreamer's Avenue: My Piece and Salutation on this year's PEBA-Philippine Based Finalists. VOTE HERE.

Also, I'd like to say thank you so much to those who voted already and even recommended my entry! Thanks much especially to those who I do not know. I really really appreciate your support. God Bless you guys. :)

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In A Month

In less than two months, it's going to be Christmas time again. 

In a month, it's going to be A Dreamer's Avenue's second year!

Time flies really fast. Parang kailan lang, I started this blog as a way of pouring out my heartache. It has definitely gone a long way since the day I decided to make its debut in the world wide web. To this date, I am no longer running just a blog but more. Some of which I decided to keep its anonymity. 

Blogging has served me so much. It has been a venue where I could share my innermost thoughts on things I see and believe. It has been a way for my friends to keep updated of what's up with my life. It has served people who don't know me to at least have an idea of who the person behind this blog is.

For a couple of times, I thought of leaving this "avenue" especially when I finally had my domain. But for a certain reason, I just couldn't leave this. It has been a part of me that the thought of leaving it hurts. This blog is special to me for a lot of reasons, but perhaps the most of it is that this is a mirror of myself.

What you see and read is what you definitely will get. This is me. Its simplicity defines me. I am not saying that my other blogs don't, actually if you'll read my other blogs, you'll see my other sides as a person - because there are things I chose not to share here. This is just almost a half of who I am - at least for two years that it has been up. This has been long-running as compared to my other blogs. I guess that too is one reason why I just love this blog.

As I start counting down to my second year in this "avenue", and as I continue my so far five years of blogging, expect some changes in here. Changes not just on how it looks, but on how I deliver my thoughts.

I am just so excited for what is in store for me on my second year. So far, I am just so grateful because I know a lot of people have seen and appreciated this little blog of mine. I am grateful to those who continuously read my posts, and never fail to drop a comment even if I don't usually respond. :)

For now, I want to keep the excitement. For now, I'd want to enjoy the remaining days before this blog turns two years old on the 9th of December. 

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Meanwhile, as the excitement grows, please help me with this. Please vote A Dreamer's Avenue: My Piece and Salutation on this year's PEBA-Philippine Based Finalists. VOTE HERE.

Thank you so much! :)

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