The Song That Says It All...

funny but yes, i've learned one very important thing as i faced this very memorable part of my journey. i learned to shut up. i learned that silence is better than to speak even a single word. minsan, inakala ko na pag may problema, mabuting i-share sa iba, pero narealize ko, minsan, mas magaang harapin ito mag-isa. mas makakapag-isip ka...mas nagiging madali ang lahat.

HINDI NA BA PWEDE
by Freestyle


hindi na ba pwede,
wala na bang pag-asa
pag-ibig sa iyo'y,
wala na bang ibubuga
kasiyaha'y pansamantala lamang pala
saan ako nagkulang,
o di kaya'y sumobra
kung ano man iyo'y,
sabihin mo na sana
mga luha'y di na malabanan pa
para bang hindi na mawawala
hindi na kaya pang magmahal ng gan'to
hindi magmamahal kung hindi rin sa iyo
hindi na kaya pa...
kahit anong mangyari
huwag kang mag-alinlangan
sasabihin sa iyo,
ang aking nararamdaman
ikaw lamang ang aking inaasam-asam
tingin mo ba sa aki'y
hanggang kaibigan lamang
kung ganoon man iyo'y
sabihin mo na lamang
kalungkuta'y aking pinangangamba
para bang wala nang magagawa
hindi na kaya pang magmahal ng ganito
hindi magmamahal kung hindi rin sa iyo
hindi na kaya pa...
sana'y malaman mo
ang pag-ibig kong ito'y totoo..

in time...i'll know

it's hard to explain...but yes...i can't hold back the tears that's falling in my eyes...can't bear it anymore...but i won't, still, give up...i know, things will be a lot better, in God's perfect time...i may be in shadow of despair at the moment, but in time, i know...God will lead me to the right path He has in stored for me...i am in confusion though, because of the premise i had...i realized, nobody is indeed perfect, and that not at all times, i'll be in the bed of roses...too bad i can't blame any but my self...but in spite of it all, i stand still, maybe because of the faith i have that in time, things will be just exactly how i want it to be...or best, how God wants it to be...i know it won't be the last time i'm gonna be at this phase in my life...i know...in time, i'll be at the peak of what they call, success...i don't know how to explain it, but yes...i'm troubled by the thought that i might quit the fight...but yes, as what i've said, as long as i have faith...and i believe that God will in time lead me to that perfect path, which was specially made for me...now i weep...but in His perfect time...i'll laugh out loud like a child who got a star from school...or most probably, like a child who got that candy from his dad's pocket...this is my now....tomorrow would be MY PERFECT TIME...

[Nov 21, '08 5:07 PM]

Estado ng Puso

kahit gaano ko man pilitin, na ika'y limutin,
sadyang di kayang diktahan,
ang pusong nagsusumamong iyong balikan,
pilitin ko mang tumawa
sa pag-ibig sa'yo alam kong di magsasawa
dahil hangga't ako'y humihinga,
sa pag-ibig mo pa rin titingala.

naisin ko mang maging masaya,
di ko kayang itanggi na nasa iyo lang ang ligaya,
sa tuwing ako'y nag-iisa,
di maikubli ang pagkabalisa.

mahal kita, alam kong alam mo yan,
nakakalungkot lang, kailangan mong lumisan,
sana pag dating ng araw mapagtanto mo,
na ang puso ko at puso mo, ay sa isa't-isa lang nagsusumamo.

===5:51; december 9, 2008====